Year after year after year, I set mostly attainable goals and fail miserably. I think this year I failed the most miserably of all. But I'm okay with that. 2011 was truly an amazing year. We got out of debt, took on a small amount back, met some other financial goals, both got new jobs, travelled to many places both solo and as a family, been busier than ever, gone through big transitions at church...... I can go on and on and on. But I do not have a single complaint. I'm still alive and kicking, even if I am a few pounds over where I started this time last year. Hey, I'm not perfect.
But I do understand that it's no small deal that I didn't hit the weight loss goals. I simply didn't try hard enough. I let life get in the way, as usual. I discovered a lot about myself in the process though. First and foremost, I cannot do this alone. I don't have enough willpower or self control to go solo in the get healthy game. And I'm thankful that I have a husband and a doctor who are with me on this one!
With that said, here is the new plan for 2012. 1) I registered for my first 1/2 marathon which I will participate in some capacity on July 22 in Chicago. I told about 40 of my colleagues about it, anybody the reads my junk on Facebook and anybody that reads this blog, and I'll tell whoever will listen! I want everyone to know so it's a constant reminder of why I'm GOING to do this! 2) I talked to my doctor about the Lap band today. My insurance requires that I am under a doctor supervised weight loss plan for 6 consecutive months before I will be eligible. So, I will visit his office once a month for a weigh in and every other month for an office visit. If whatever I am doing is not working by July, then in the fall I will have the procedure. But wouldn't it be awesome if by the end of these 6 months I no longer quality???? mmhmm. 3) Kenny agreed to join weight watchers with me! This is huge people, huge. Now he has a small investment in himself while helping me with my goals. Goodbye chocolate cake nights! He has also put on quite a bit of weight in the past few years and is starting to feel it. So weekly, we will attend a meeting as a family so we can all learn about the huge advantages of taking on a healthier lifestyle. Of course the kids don't need to lose weight, but they do need to learn healthy habits and I can't think of a better way to teach them. So, with the motivation (and huge expense) of this 1/2 Marathon, and the possibility of a major surgical procedure, and a major lifestyle change for the whole family, I'd say 2012 is going to be totally awesome!
Well that's all for now. I'm so very thankful for the many blessings we experienced in 2011, and am very excited to welcome 2012. Happy New Year everyone!
~Lori~
Friday, December 30, 2011
Saturday, November 12, 2011
39 weeks
The first thing that comes to mind when I think of 39 weeks is the time it took to grow my babies. Both were born at or before 39 weeks. So much happens in that time, from conception to birth. Our bodies change, our hormones change, our lives completely change. So, it's not that hard to liken that experience to what I am currently going through......weight loss. It's hard, it's emotional, it's tiring, it's challenging at times, it's amazing at times and it's really a miracle if you can hit your goals!
One goal that I set for myself several years ago when I embarked on this endless challenge was participating in a half-marathon. I was supposed to do it two years ago, but a knee surgery (and lack of motivation following) killed that dream. But it's time I get (more) serious. Yesterday, on one of the coolest days of the year 11-11-11 (one of my favorite #'s), I registered to participate in a 1/2 marathon in Chicago. It is exactly 39 weeks from tomorrow. A lot has to happen in the next 9 months for this to be possible, not unlike childbearing. I have to change the way I eat, I have to change the way I exercise, I have to make a commitment to myself, and I have to be realistic in my changes. Unlike childbirth, my results will not have an impact on the life of another, but rather on my own life. If I do this, I will be accomplishing a long-term goal. I may not lose 100 lbs in the way, but I'll in a heck of a lot better shape than I am now. I will be healthier, more energetic, more active and able to show my kids what it is like to finish something big.
My five year old daughter Caryn will be with me, and is also working towards her own goal, so she will be training with me in the beginning. While this is mostly for myself, it is an important step for my whole family. It's a pretty big investment; race registration, hotel, airfare etc. It's going to take a lot of work and commitment from everyone. I will have to make time to train, I will have to improve my habits, and I will have to have the faith in myself that I know many of you, and most importantly GOD has in me.
Tomorrow, I will post my covenant with myself. I will print it, sign it, share it with my family (and my blog followers) and post it in plain sight. I will not be making drastic changes like I have tried to do before, but rather realistic attainable, necessary changes that will improve the lifestyle and health of our whole family.
I am really nervous! I have a lot of work to do. But this is a season of transition. Both in church, in my career and now in my personal life. And with a lot of prayers, faith, strength and determination, I will make it happen and surprise myself! I don't know how often I will make it on here to post about it, but I plan to update occasionally. It's going to be a great season!
One goal that I set for myself several years ago when I embarked on this endless challenge was participating in a half-marathon. I was supposed to do it two years ago, but a knee surgery (and lack of motivation following) killed that dream. But it's time I get (more) serious. Yesterday, on one of the coolest days of the year 11-11-11 (one of my favorite #'s), I registered to participate in a 1/2 marathon in Chicago. It is exactly 39 weeks from tomorrow. A lot has to happen in the next 9 months for this to be possible, not unlike childbearing. I have to change the way I eat, I have to change the way I exercise, I have to make a commitment to myself, and I have to be realistic in my changes. Unlike childbirth, my results will not have an impact on the life of another, but rather on my own life. If I do this, I will be accomplishing a long-term goal. I may not lose 100 lbs in the way, but I'll in a heck of a lot better shape than I am now. I will be healthier, more energetic, more active and able to show my kids what it is like to finish something big.
My five year old daughter Caryn will be with me, and is also working towards her own goal, so she will be training with me in the beginning. While this is mostly for myself, it is an important step for my whole family. It's a pretty big investment; race registration, hotel, airfare etc. It's going to take a lot of work and commitment from everyone. I will have to make time to train, I will have to improve my habits, and I will have to have the faith in myself that I know many of you, and most importantly GOD has in me.
Tomorrow, I will post my covenant with myself. I will print it, sign it, share it with my family (and my blog followers) and post it in plain sight. I will not be making drastic changes like I have tried to do before, but rather realistic attainable, necessary changes that will improve the lifestyle and health of our whole family.
I am really nervous! I have a lot of work to do. But this is a season of transition. Both in church, in my career and now in my personal life. And with a lot of prayers, faith, strength and determination, I will make it happen and surprise myself! I don't know how often I will make it on here to post about it, but I plan to update occasionally. It's going to be a great season!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Oh My Gosh. I'm nuts.
Yup! I signed up to do an 8K race. I did this two years ago and did an awesome job preparing for it. Last year, I bailed last minute due to sick kids (and total lack of prep.) This time, I'm going to rock it. Starting next week, I'm going to get my but in gear. Next week because we are leaving Thursday night to go to Atlanta. Caryn and I will get our fair share of touristy exercise, but there will be no regime. But starting Monday, I will figure out how to fit it in. I've really slacked off for the past month or so, and it's time to kick it into high gear! Yeh! I'm scared, yet excited. I can't wait to post the results!
Two Goals:
Finish in an hour or less
NOT GET HURT!
Two Goals:
Finish in an hour or less
NOT GET HURT!
Monday, September 12, 2011
Picture Perfect.
So here it is. Me. Yup. In ALL my glory. I couldn't have picked a more flattering outfit, huh? Actually, this isn't bad compared to a few years ago. But I'm not worrying about it. I know what it is and I have accepted it. Changes are on the horizon. I have a very expensive goal I have to meet in two short months. So, by Christmas, expect a much different image. Changes are on the horizon not only for my body, but in my heart and mind. Things are just kinda strange these days, and I'm not sure where the road leads, but I'm going to follow it with vigor, hope and faith. I'm excited and scared to experience the changes. But God will lead the way. I will close with a scripture I found last night that is oh so relevant to this season in my life:
Monday, September 5, 2011
Two Months
As the first month of our challenge comes to an end, there were ups and downs, trials and tribulations, loss and gain. I don't have the final numbers because I don't have a scale and I don't go to curves anymore, but I think I did pretty well. In fact, I fit into a size smaller pants yesterday and they were not even tight. They may have been generous, but I'll take it! One thing that I have learned from the challenge is that while it might sound easy, it might not be so. Don't jump into it head first. Go slow and with moderation. Since I started off hot and heavy, I had to slow down and even stop to recoup! Ouch! Lesson learned.
This month, Kama and I have decided to change up the challenge a bit. I think we are doing 100 crunches a day or at least work towards that. I have also given myself a goal which I cannot reveal. But in two months I'm doing something that will require a very strick and reginmented routine to achieve. I'm going to stick to my calorie goal, not give in to temptation and work very hard to do what I can physcially without injury. I can't wait to see what two months of following this plan will produce (or reduce). I promise, I'll let you in on the secret by the end of the year, but for now it's just between me and my girls, and the person I'm paying, lol.
So, I will do my best to update this blog regularly, though it might not be everyday because I'll be busy doing everything else. Wish me luck, because it won't be easy. But I don't have a choice because now it's going to cost me money! I don't like to waste money ;)
Have a great Labor Day everyone!
I'll post a before picture later.
This month, Kama and I have decided to change up the challenge a bit. I think we are doing 100 crunches a day or at least work towards that. I have also given myself a goal which I cannot reveal. But in two months I'm doing something that will require a very strick and reginmented routine to achieve. I'm going to stick to my calorie goal, not give in to temptation and work very hard to do what I can physcially without injury. I can't wait to see what two months of following this plan will produce (or reduce). I promise, I'll let you in on the secret by the end of the year, but for now it's just between me and my girls, and the person I'm paying, lol.
So, I will do my best to update this blog regularly, though it might not be everyday because I'll be busy doing everything else. Wish me luck, because it won't be easy. But I don't have a choice because now it's going to cost me money! I don't like to waste money ;)
Have a great Labor Day everyone!
I'll post a before picture later.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Wow that was quick!
I can't believe that it is already September. It seems like August went by too fast and it can't be true that summer is already over. I mean, it's still 100 degrees out! Come on already!
So herein lies the challenge. I failed miserably last month. I got hurt, then I got sick, then I got hot and tired and then I got sick again. I never lost site of my goals. I had to remember that I was human and not capable of doing to all at once. However, there are far to many excuses in this short paragraph.
To be honest, I really do not know what the solution is. Time management continues to be an issue. I tried really hard to create a menu of healthy stuff that we will actually eat. Thing is, it takes time to prepare these extravagant meals. Time is not something that is plentiful around here. Any given night we are called to a meeting or a school function or a dance class, or need something at the store for a project or are just plain pooped. So it's usually 7 by the time we eat, kids are in bed by 8 and then we are as close to a zombie as humans can be. I wish I knew the solution to the evening drag. Where can I get the burst of energy I need to be productive after 5?
Since that question likely to go unanswered, I have a couple of things I am going to try this month. I have to quit curves (again) because my work schedule changed so I can't make it on my lunch break anymore. I'm really going to miss that! The upside though, is I have an extra 45 minutes everyday to do school work. So far this week it has worked out well. Hopefully it will free up book time on the weekends. But to replace curves, I'm going use my bike and computer more. There are lots of great free exercises available online. I want to dedicate at least thirty minutes a day to some sort of physical activity. I also want to include the kids in this plan, but that might mean introducing weekend hikes or something, because it just isn't going to happen during the week. And I'm going on a soda and cake fast. No cake, and no cokes. This means not at fast food or restaurants either. I'm also giving up fast food at lunch. I will bring my lunch everyday, and if I forget, I'm just going to be hungry until I get home. I think those are three things that will help me achieve my goals. Next month, I'll see what else I need to tweak.
I know these changes don't seem like much. They are pretty big to me though. Soda is my outlet. I use it as my "caffeine" Kenny and I love to enjoy cake when the kids go to bed a few times a week. Not as much since we started eating dinner later, but still, it is not a good habit at all. And fast food at lunch is just ridiculous. There is no reason why I can't make my lunch while I'm make Caryn's. What I need to do is stop rationalizing my actions and also to allow for flexibility. I know that the game changes sometimes and you have to adapt. But it doesn't have to be so hard and the derailing doesn't have to be permanent.
Weight loss, life changes, routine altering...these are all very difficult things to accomplish. I wish there was an easy button. But, I am determined to figure it out before I retire! lol. Well, hopefully before then.
Have a great month everyone!
So herein lies the challenge. I failed miserably last month. I got hurt, then I got sick, then I got hot and tired and then I got sick again. I never lost site of my goals. I had to remember that I was human and not capable of doing to all at once. However, there are far to many excuses in this short paragraph.
To be honest, I really do not know what the solution is. Time management continues to be an issue. I tried really hard to create a menu of healthy stuff that we will actually eat. Thing is, it takes time to prepare these extravagant meals. Time is not something that is plentiful around here. Any given night we are called to a meeting or a school function or a dance class, or need something at the store for a project or are just plain pooped. So it's usually 7 by the time we eat, kids are in bed by 8 and then we are as close to a zombie as humans can be. I wish I knew the solution to the evening drag. Where can I get the burst of energy I need to be productive after 5?
Since that question likely to go unanswered, I have a couple of things I am going to try this month. I have to quit curves (again) because my work schedule changed so I can't make it on my lunch break anymore. I'm really going to miss that! The upside though, is I have an extra 45 minutes everyday to do school work. So far this week it has worked out well. Hopefully it will free up book time on the weekends. But to replace curves, I'm going use my bike and computer more. There are lots of great free exercises available online. I want to dedicate at least thirty minutes a day to some sort of physical activity. I also want to include the kids in this plan, but that might mean introducing weekend hikes or something, because it just isn't going to happen during the week. And I'm going on a soda and cake fast. No cake, and no cokes. This means not at fast food or restaurants either. I'm also giving up fast food at lunch. I will bring my lunch everyday, and if I forget, I'm just going to be hungry until I get home. I think those are three things that will help me achieve my goals. Next month, I'll see what else I need to tweak.
I know these changes don't seem like much. They are pretty big to me though. Soda is my outlet. I use it as my "caffeine" Kenny and I love to enjoy cake when the kids go to bed a few times a week. Not as much since we started eating dinner later, but still, it is not a good habit at all. And fast food at lunch is just ridiculous. There is no reason why I can't make my lunch while I'm make Caryn's. What I need to do is stop rationalizing my actions and also to allow for flexibility. I know that the game changes sometimes and you have to adapt. But it doesn't have to be so hard and the derailing doesn't have to be permanent.
Weight loss, life changes, routine altering...these are all very difficult things to accomplish. I wish there was an easy button. But, I am determined to figure it out before I retire! lol. Well, hopefully before then.
Have a great month everyone!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Wait, it's only Tuesday?
So the morning routine is going great, for the first two days at least. My healthy breakfast choices are a big hit, the kids are calm and happy and we are not so rushed. This morning I rode my bike for 30 minutes while facebooking on my phone (lol, it made 30 minutes feel like 10). I burned a little over 100 calories, so I think I need to choose a workout rather than just pedal. And now I'm about to embark on my push-up adventure. I ate well today, and feel great because of it. It's amazing what a healthy menu will do for energy levels. My evening routine leaves much to be desired. Tonight we didn't eat until a quarter to 8! I got busy doing stuff in the kitchen and time just got away from me. The kids got tired so they barely ate. And here it is 9:00 and I'm soooo ready for bed. I know we'll get the hang of it. I'm trying something new.....patience. Routine is not one of my better qualities. It is something that I know I need to work on though, so I'm gonna do it. I read once that 28 days forms a habit (I think it was 28) and that's what our routines need to be. A habit, with flexibility.
Alright, off to bed. I hope whoever is reading this had an awesome day and great day tomorrow!
Lori
Alright, off to bed. I hope whoever is reading this had an awesome day and great day tomorrow!
Lori
Monday, August 15, 2011
Off to a good start, this fine Monday.
Today was the first day of our new morning routine, and I have to say, I love it! It was so nice to spend some time with my kids this morning. You know, since they have been going to daycare, I've never had this time, and I really enjoyed seeing them fresh and new and excited to start the day. We started off our day with really awesome smoothie's made with Greek yogurt, soy milk, fresh strawberries and frozen bananas. During breakfast, we chatted, laughed, talked and loved on each other. Then I took the kids to school. For lunch I enjoyed my usual slimfast, cheese stick and apple. I blew it on the way home with peanutbutter pretzels and an oatmeal cookie with a diet dr. pepper. But for dinner, we had an awesome pork roast with black eyed peas and fresh steamed green beans.
I went to curves on my lunch break and had an okay workout. I didn't push it because my knee and hip are still hurting, so I don't want to aggravate them. But, I still burned over 200 calories. And, I lost almost four pounds since I weighed myself last week! I am now down 15 lbs since May. And that's not even trying as hard as I can, so I can't wait to watch the results once I get my act together.
The other important thing that happened today was the whole God thing. You know, something is just different with you start your day with the Lord. Or invite him to start it with you, since he is always there. My prayer practice didn't go as I had intended, but I made time for it anyway. Then the kids and I said a blessing on the day on the way to school. I felt so light and free all day. Nothing got under my skin. My head was clear, my thoughts were positive. It was just different. Why didn't I think of this sooner?
Well, I'm tired, and I'm rambling. Moral of this story is God+Family+Healthy food= Happy Lori. Happy Lori is bound to succeed.
Goodnight y'all!
I went to curves on my lunch break and had an okay workout. I didn't push it because my knee and hip are still hurting, so I don't want to aggravate them. But, I still burned over 200 calories. And, I lost almost four pounds since I weighed myself last week! I am now down 15 lbs since May. And that's not even trying as hard as I can, so I can't wait to watch the results once I get my act together.
The other important thing that happened today was the whole God thing. You know, something is just different with you start your day with the Lord. Or invite him to start it with you, since he is always there. My prayer practice didn't go as I had intended, but I made time for it anyway. Then the kids and I said a blessing on the day on the way to school. I felt so light and free all day. Nothing got under my skin. My head was clear, my thoughts were positive. It was just different. Why didn't I think of this sooner?
Well, I'm tired, and I'm rambling. Moral of this story is God+Family+Healthy food= Happy Lori. Happy Lori is bound to succeed.
Goodnight y'all!
Sunday, August 14, 2011
It's Sunday night
That it is. The close of another busy weekend and the beginning of a new week. I often feel like I should get another day off just to recover from the weekend. One of the joys of working outside of the home during business hours. There are things that get put off until the weekend. Then there are things you can only do on the weekend. So you are trying to cram five days of things that need to be done on top of the things than can only be done, into two measly days that seem to only have 8 hours rather than the normally scheduled twenty four. But, I'm proud to say I accomplished a little that was important, not much that was not. Spent some time doing school work, spent some time with the family, spent some time doing nothing.....including eating right or exercising. But that's okay. I did spend some quality time making a menu and grocery list. Probably 2/3rds of my gigantic bill was fresh fruits and veggies. Now the discipline will come in, trying to be motivated enough to cook them. With as much as I spent, I'd better succeed. I'm looking forward to trying a few new recipes this week. I'm changing it up in a good way. I hope it is worth it! If it all tastes as good as it sounds and as pretty as it looks, we might have success! Time will tell. Tomorrow starts our new morning routine, new work out schedule and also my new prayer time. I think something that I have been missing is some regularly scheduled time with God. After all, he is who leads me and will guide me on the right path. If I don't invite him to the party, how will I know where to go from here. I look forward to opening my heart and mind to whatever it is God has in store for me. Now that I have rambled in forty different directions (see what my husband has to put up with?) I'm going to bed. I hope everyone has a wonderful night. Much love to all...
Lori
Lori
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Reprogramming in progress
I am finally starting to feel better today. May the last couple of days at work were rough with my hip and then my arms from the push-ups. Lesson learned. Everything within moderation. Even the push-up app thingy says to take a day off in between. So, I think I'm going to start going to curves three days a week and do push-ups on the alternate days. I absolutely cannot afford to get hurt. This weight loss isn't going to be at the expense of my health. Injury causes discouragement and it has held me back before. Except, in the past I just give up. This time, I’m going to figure it out and change up the routine. So next week it will look like this.
Sunday- Push-ups/bike
Monday- Curves
Tuesday- Push-ups/bike
Wednesday- Curves
Thursday- Push-ups/bike
Friday- Curves.
Saturday- off, except I will try to do something active with the family
I am also going back to menu planning. I’m going to be very diligent about planning all of my meals. Lunch will be a challenge for me on the days I go to Curves because I will have like three minutes to eat on my way back to work. My lunch may be cut by 15 minutes due to a change in schedule. I was struggling with slimfast and fruit because I just couldn’t swallow it after day three or four. But, it might work now that I am only going three days a week. It’s actually pretty sustaining. Then I can stay at work and do school work or read while on lunch a couple of day. It will make things feel less rushed.
My motivation is there. I’m ready to do this, I just need to figure out what works and learn from what doesn't. And I need to slow down. Because, trying to do everything all at once like superwoman just doesn’t work for me. Now ask me after I finally lose that 100th pound, and I might have a different take. But I’m gonna be patient and start off slow. It took me 31 years to pack on this weight; it’s not going to fall off in a month!
I’ll be back tomorrow to share my push-up madness and menu for the week. Until then, People magazine has a great article on what people across the country (including an inspiring school district in California) are doing to get healthy! You should pick it up!
Sunday- Push-ups/bike
Monday- Curves
Tuesday- Push-ups/bike
Wednesday- Curves
Thursday- Push-ups/bike
Friday- Curves.
Saturday- off, except I will try to do something active with the family
I am also going back to menu planning. I’m going to be very diligent about planning all of my meals. Lunch will be a challenge for me on the days I go to Curves because I will have like three minutes to eat on my way back to work. My lunch may be cut by 15 minutes due to a change in schedule. I was struggling with slimfast and fruit because I just couldn’t swallow it after day three or four. But, it might work now that I am only going three days a week. It’s actually pretty sustaining. Then I can stay at work and do school work or read while on lunch a couple of day. It will make things feel less rushed.
My motivation is there. I’m ready to do this, I just need to figure out what works and learn from what doesn't. And I need to slow down. Because, trying to do everything all at once like superwoman just doesn’t work for me. Now ask me after I finally lose that 100th pound, and I might have a different take. But I’m gonna be patient and start off slow. It took me 31 years to pack on this weight; it’s not going to fall off in a month!
I’ll be back tomorrow to share my push-up madness and menu for the week. Until then, People magazine has a great article on what people across the country (including an inspiring school district in California) are doing to get healthy! You should pick it up!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Nope, not tonight.
Today has been an exceptionally long, painful day. Insert shameless whining. My hip hurts, my knee hurts, my foot hurts, my shoulders hurt, my arms hurt, my neck hurts. And you know what?? Losing weight sucks. Because all of the things that you have to do to to make the whole process work are medicine for injury. Injury=setback. Setbacks are killer for motivation and self esteem. And I simply don't have time for them!!!!!! Okay, thanks for letting me get that out. I'm really trying to ignore my hip, hoping the pain will just "work itself out" However, today I think it was speaking to me by throwing off my balance, annoying my bad knee, and then my good knee and also my badish foot and then my back, oh yeah! So, I think a night off is in order. I didn't make it to curves because the lady that opens was late......again. I guess I'll change my lunch time to accommodate her lack of schedule adherence. But after the way I feel tonight, it's probably a good thing.
How to bounce back? Well, I think I'll research some post push-up stretching methods. Then, I'll do my school work. And then I think I'll go to bed early and try to rest by over tired body.
Until then, sorry for the less than up-beat post tonight. But, I'm beat. And Shiny-Happy Lori is taking a night off.
BUT.....Tomorrow really IS Friday, and I have an exciting weekend ahead, so I know it only gets better from here.
Goodnight!
How to bounce back? Well, I think I'll research some post push-up stretching methods. Then, I'll do my school work. And then I think I'll go to bed early and try to rest by over tired body.
Until then, sorry for the less than up-beat post tonight. But, I'm beat. And Shiny-Happy Lori is taking a night off.
BUT.....Tomorrow really IS Friday, and I have an exciting weekend ahead, so I know it only gets better from here.
Goodnight!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
It's Friday night.....
Oh wait....no it's not. Shoot. Oh well, only a one more night and it will be. Not that that has anything to do with this blog. Other than let you know how delirious, or perhaps delusional I might be.
As far as the diet goes today, well, not as bad as yesterday but much room for improvement. Ask my tummy, and my complexion. I did however make it to Curves today. I pushed through my workout despite my uncooperative hip, crampy calf and wobbly arms. I also weighed myself and I'm holding steady at my most recent loss. I'm happy with that, considering I have not been very consistent.
And, of course, I did the push-ups. I was hoping for a measly 30 or 40, following my app. But no, because I was honest about my progress yesterday, it made me do 70! And I will go to sleep tonight....again.....with quivering biceps. But you know what's cool? I can totally feel the effects of my push ups in my abs! I had know idea what a workout they are. So, painful yes. Worth it? Time will tell, but I'm anxious to see the results of push-up consistency. And maybe one day I can get off of my knees.
With that, good night. And here is to hoping tomorrow will fly so that I can really say "It's Friday night!"
As far as the diet goes today, well, not as bad as yesterday but much room for improvement. Ask my tummy, and my complexion. I did however make it to Curves today. I pushed through my workout despite my uncooperative hip, crampy calf and wobbly arms. I also weighed myself and I'm holding steady at my most recent loss. I'm happy with that, considering I have not been very consistent.
And, of course, I did the push-ups. I was hoping for a measly 30 or 40, following my app. But no, because I was honest about my progress yesterday, it made me do 70! And I will go to sleep tonight....again.....with quivering biceps. But you know what's cool? I can totally feel the effects of my push ups in my abs! I had know idea what a workout they are. So, painful yes. Worth it? Time will tell, but I'm anxious to see the results of push-up consistency. And maybe one day I can get off of my knees.
With that, good night. And here is to hoping tomorrow will fly so that I can really say "It's Friday night!"
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Day 1-2.
So even though I posted yesterday, I realized I didn't update my blog with the results. I'll do better from here on out. Today's blog will sum up yesterday AND today!
Yesterday I did great. I stayed with in my recommended calorie intake (per Sparkpeople app), I didn't indulge in anything despite being hungry all day, and I did my 100 push-ups....on the wall. Yes. I was using my incredibly sore hip as an excuse for not getting down. And my arms were kinda fuzzy feeling, and I thought I did great. I didn't use my app, because truthfully, my push-ups kinda got lost in translation and I had to get back out of bed to do them, in attempt to stick with the program. Probably not my best effort. But, I did them.
Today....I didn't do great. I didn't eat breakfast because I was so concerned with getting Caryn to her first day of Kindergarten. I'm fairly certain I had more butterflies in my tummy than she did. Then, I got hungry and I needed a bag to put her sleep mat that I forgot to bring in, so I stopped at the gas station. I got a small fountain Pepsi and pink snowballs. Yup, breakfast of champions. Then I went to get my oil changed. Then I needed to get lunch since I was going to be late for work, I wouldn't be taking a lunch. So, with only $3 to my name, I got the cheapest thing I could for the least amount...a double cheeseburger and a coke....and it was SOOOOO good. Then, I got to work. Then I was hungry about 2:00 so I had a bag of pecan sandies from the machine. Then I was hungry at 4, so I got a bag of bugles and a diet dr. pepper. Then I got home and had a mini chocolate mint moonpie before dinner. Then I had a healthy dinner (not that it mattered after the preceding menu items). And then....I did 100 push-ups.....on the floor. And wow. My arms are, ehem, yah. no words to describe. There are hand indentations on the floor and it is a little difficult to type. But, I did them. For real today. And my hip wasn't bothered. Yeh for that part at least.
The moral of today is that sometimes days suck. But that should not derail the program. I am not going "Start-over" tomorrow, I'm going to continue on and do better. I will start my three day marathon at Curves. I couldn't go yesterday or today because of other obligations. But I will through Friday. It will be a challenge and I'll probably be limping sluggishly around work for the rest of the day, but I am going to go work my butt off and stay with the program. Then I will come home and cry through another 100 push-ups and remember why I am doing this. Perhaps I will put a picture of a really awesome dress under my chin as motivation. Whatever it takes, right? Anyway, enough rambling for tonight. Tomorrow is another day. The best thing is, God gives us a new day everyday and really doesn't care what happened yesterday. I am forever thankful for that, and the blessing of good health and the ability to make myself healthy!
Don't forget to check out Kama's progress! http://writeofweigh.blogspot.com/
Goodnight!
Yesterday I did great. I stayed with in my recommended calorie intake (per Sparkpeople app), I didn't indulge in anything despite being hungry all day, and I did my 100 push-ups....on the wall. Yes. I was using my incredibly sore hip as an excuse for not getting down. And my arms were kinda fuzzy feeling, and I thought I did great. I didn't use my app, because truthfully, my push-ups kinda got lost in translation and I had to get back out of bed to do them, in attempt to stick with the program. Probably not my best effort. But, I did them.
Today....I didn't do great. I didn't eat breakfast because I was so concerned with getting Caryn to her first day of Kindergarten. I'm fairly certain I had more butterflies in my tummy than she did. Then, I got hungry and I needed a bag to put her sleep mat that I forgot to bring in, so I stopped at the gas station. I got a small fountain Pepsi and pink snowballs. Yup, breakfast of champions. Then I went to get my oil changed. Then I needed to get lunch since I was going to be late for work, I wouldn't be taking a lunch. So, with only $3 to my name, I got the cheapest thing I could for the least amount...a double cheeseburger and a coke....and it was SOOOOO good. Then, I got to work. Then I was hungry about 2:00 so I had a bag of pecan sandies from the machine. Then I was hungry at 4, so I got a bag of bugles and a diet dr. pepper. Then I got home and had a mini chocolate mint moonpie before dinner. Then I had a healthy dinner (not that it mattered after the preceding menu items). And then....I did 100 push-ups.....on the floor. And wow. My arms are, ehem, yah. no words to describe. There are hand indentations on the floor and it is a little difficult to type. But, I did them. For real today. And my hip wasn't bothered. Yeh for that part at least.
The moral of today is that sometimes days suck. But that should not derail the program. I am not going "Start-over" tomorrow, I'm going to continue on and do better. I will start my three day marathon at Curves. I couldn't go yesterday or today because of other obligations. But I will through Friday. It will be a challenge and I'll probably be limping sluggishly around work for the rest of the day, but I am going to go work my butt off and stay with the program. Then I will come home and cry through another 100 push-ups and remember why I am doing this. Perhaps I will put a picture of a really awesome dress under my chin as motivation. Whatever it takes, right? Anyway, enough rambling for tonight. Tomorrow is another day. The best thing is, God gives us a new day everyday and really doesn't care what happened yesterday. I am forever thankful for that, and the blessing of good health and the ability to make myself healthy!
Don't forget to check out Kama's progress! http://writeofweigh.blogspot.com/
Goodnight!
Monday, August 8, 2011
Challenge+Buddy=success
I did it! I completed the 5K. It's great, I know. I finished, that's what everyone is telling me. Yes, it's awesome. However, for me it's a little more complicated than that. You see, for the past three years, I have been challenging myself to do this thing. I really want to run it. In fact, I want to run in a half-marathon. At least I still have time for that challenge, since my goal was to do it by the time I am forty. The point of my ramblings is that I am moving backwards instead of forward. This year, I was fortunate enough to tie my chip time with last year. At least I didn't get slower again, I guess. But the biggest issue here is how I felt afterwards. Last year, I did this 5K seven months after have surgery on my knee. That was my excuse for a lackluster performance. The truth is, I didn't prepare. This year, I let my excuse for not preparing be time and weather. And I'm paying for it. I'm sore all over. This is the first year finishing actually hurt. That's not cool. So while I motivated others to do it for the first time which totally rocks, I didn't do myself any service. Somethings gotta change!
With that, I realized a friend and I have similar goals. We both have kids, both have husbands and both have over 100 excess pounds that are slowing us down. And we have both decided we can't do it alone. So, we have challenged ourselves to stop making excuses and do something about it. We are going to work together to lose weight and get healthy. And we have a team of mama's behind us for support along with our husbands. We are not going to cut each other any slack. We have challenges, goals, consequences and rewards. We are going to share pictures of our journey along the way. And, if you are reading this, we need your help too! Here is how it is going to go:
1) We must complete our challenges everyday. (The first challenge is 100 push-ups a day, tracked by a phone app)
2) We must blog about it everyday.
So that means you are going to be hearing a lot more from us! Root us on, push us harder, motivate us, challenge us, love us, hate us, join us! Whatever it takes.
Please join me in welcoming my buddy Kama and follow her blog http://writeofweigh.blogspot.com/ Together, we will make weight loss history and prove that two busy moms, one who works outside of the home and one that works at home, both with a common goal, have what it takes to lose the weight, and that it's better when your not alone!
And it's on!
With that, I realized a friend and I have similar goals. We both have kids, both have husbands and both have over 100 excess pounds that are slowing us down. And we have both decided we can't do it alone. So, we have challenged ourselves to stop making excuses and do something about it. We are going to work together to lose weight and get healthy. And we have a team of mama's behind us for support along with our husbands. We are not going to cut each other any slack. We have challenges, goals, consequences and rewards. We are going to share pictures of our journey along the way. And, if you are reading this, we need your help too! Here is how it is going to go:
1) We must complete our challenges everyday. (The first challenge is 100 push-ups a day, tracked by a phone app)
2) We must blog about it everyday.
So that means you are going to be hearing a lot more from us! Root us on, push us harder, motivate us, challenge us, love us, hate us, join us! Whatever it takes.
Please join me in welcoming my buddy Kama and follow her blog http://writeofweigh.blogspot.com/ Together, we will make weight loss history and prove that two busy moms, one who works outside of the home and one that works at home, both with a common goal, have what it takes to lose the weight, and that it's better when your not alone!
And it's on!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
I'm doomed!
The ever so famous Woodstock 5K that I vowed to be uber prepared for this year is in just a few days. I swore up and down that I would walk before dinner with the kids. Guess how many times that has happened? Indulge me as I whine a bit. Being a working mom is hard. Not to say it is harder than a stay at home mom, which is difficult in it's own way, but it is hard! There isn't enough time. I've adjusted the time I wake up and attempted to adjust the time I go to bed. (you see how well that is working out, right?) But it just never works. My schedule looks something like this.
4:30 AM alarm goes off for hubby
5:00 AM I roll out of bed and shower
5:30 AM Hubby leaves and I attempt to take 30 minutes of quiet time before the kids wake up.
6:00 AM Kids are up and getting ready
6:30 AM Kids are off to Mom-mom's and I'm off to work.
7:30-11:00AM- work like a dawg
11:00-12:00PM- 30 minutes at curves (when there is someone there to open the doors) and a quick lunch.
12:00-4:30PM- Working again.
4:30-5:15PM- Driving home from work
5:15-5:45PM- Picking up kids, getting organized (HA!) for the rest of the night. Usually this means zombie mode in front of the laptop for 40 minutes til I or the hubby muster up the motivation to feed the hungry kids who have usually fed themselves with snacks (at last I can say the snacks are healthy) by then.
6:30-7:15PM- Dinner
7:15-8:00PM- Kid time usually reserved for snuggling, reading, bathing, arguing, snuggling, you know....
8:00-9:00PM- A desperate attempt at getting school work done so I don't have to cram it all into the weekend. Usually spent by alt-tabbing back and forth between facebook, news stories and discussion boards.
Target bedtime is 9:00, but it usually is more like 10-12, depending on the workload and my focusability. (yes, this word will be a new induction to the Lori Dictionary)
*Disclaimer: This schedule does not include any church meetings, dance class, school orientations, altered work schedules, etc.
So, you see, when on earth am I supposed to fit a walk in? I know, really poor excuse. The other really poor excuse is that is horribly hot. And after working on my feet all day in between a sales counter and a hot warehouse, the outside hot beating sun of 6:00 PM is not very appealing. And there are not alternatives for walking in this bo-dunk town unless I'm a member of a massive Baptist Church which is pretty much not ever going to happen.
Thanks for letting me whine. I'm so unprepared for this 5K. I'm gonna hit the exercise bike and curves (assuming someone is there to open the door, unlike today) and stretch like crazy. I'm so proud of my church family for braving the storm with us this year, and I can't let them down. I will finish, even if they have to wheel me off of the course. I need to do it for myself, my kids, my friends and anyone who thinks this is a big deal. It's really amazing and I never regret it. I just dread it. Especially this year.
And with that, I'm going to have sweet dreams, I hope you will do the same!
4:30 AM alarm goes off for hubby
5:00 AM I roll out of bed and shower
5:30 AM Hubby leaves and I attempt to take 30 minutes of quiet time before the kids wake up.
6:00 AM Kids are up and getting ready
6:30 AM Kids are off to Mom-mom's and I'm off to work.
7:30-11:00AM- work like a dawg
11:00-12:00PM- 30 minutes at curves (when there is someone there to open the doors) and a quick lunch.
12:00-4:30PM- Working again.
4:30-5:15PM- Driving home from work
5:15-5:45PM- Picking up kids, getting organized (HA!) for the rest of the night. Usually this means zombie mode in front of the laptop for 40 minutes til I or the hubby muster up the motivation to feed the hungry kids who have usually fed themselves with snacks (at last I can say the snacks are healthy) by then.
6:30-7:15PM- Dinner
7:15-8:00PM- Kid time usually reserved for snuggling, reading, bathing, arguing, snuggling, you know....
8:00-9:00PM- A desperate attempt at getting school work done so I don't have to cram it all into the weekend. Usually spent by alt-tabbing back and forth between facebook, news stories and discussion boards.
Target bedtime is 9:00, but it usually is more like 10-12, depending on the workload and my focusability. (yes, this word will be a new induction to the Lori Dictionary)
*Disclaimer: This schedule does not include any church meetings, dance class, school orientations, altered work schedules, etc.
So, you see, when on earth am I supposed to fit a walk in? I know, really poor excuse. The other really poor excuse is that is horribly hot. And after working on my feet all day in between a sales counter and a hot warehouse, the outside hot beating sun of 6:00 PM is not very appealing. And there are not alternatives for walking in this bo-dunk town unless I'm a member of a massive Baptist Church which is pretty much not ever going to happen.
Thanks for letting me whine. I'm so unprepared for this 5K. I'm gonna hit the exercise bike and curves (assuming someone is there to open the door, unlike today) and stretch like crazy. I'm so proud of my church family for braving the storm with us this year, and I can't let them down. I will finish, even if they have to wheel me off of the course. I need to do it for myself, my kids, my friends and anyone who thinks this is a big deal. It's really amazing and I never regret it. I just dread it. Especially this year.
And with that, I'm going to have sweet dreams, I hope you will do the same!
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Success!
I have been a member of Curves (again) since May, 2011. Yesterday was my second weigh in and I am officially down 10 lbs and almost 5 inches (total). My BMI and whatever other body fat measurement they amuse me with have gone down. That never happened the first time around! I know I have a long way to go, BUT, this is huge. Not only because it's a nice, real number but because I am under 300 lbs. And I VOW to never see that number again, unless it is the amount I am depositing in my bank account, or the amount I am spending on my new wardrobe. I have a long way to go, but suddenly, it doesn't seem so far away. I know I can do it. And I'm super pumped up now! And I love going to Curves in the middle of my work day at least four days a week. I feel amazing and soon will look that way too.
That's all, it's been a long week and weekend. Until the next success update......May you be blessed and pay it forward.
~Lori
That's all, it's been a long week and weekend. Until the next success update......May you be blessed and pay it forward.
~Lori
Friday, July 15, 2011
Missing me?
Today, as I am preparing a retreat for the Children's ministry at church taking place tomorrow, I have clicked on the shortcut to my blog five times, yes five. Is this an accident? Hmm, who knows. Truth is, my fingers are probably trying to tell me something. I have not been very good. Not entirely my fault, but mostly.
Since I last blogged, I started doing pretty good. I started going to one of those weight loss clinics. You know, the kind that give you shots...yah. Those. And I joined curves which I started going to every day during lunch. It was going well, I lost weight and inches and started feeling good, for the most part. The shots were pretty awful, made me feel awful and I don't believe they helped. I think it was the eating choices and exercise that was making the difference. Then, I went on vacation. I danced my heart out with some of the coolest women on the planet...in wedge heals....and toured Washington D.C. and came home with a fractured foot. I tried to go to curves in my big ol' hot boot, but it didn't work. So, I ate like crap again, I didn't exercise and fell off the wagon....again.
This past week, I had the amazing opportunity to go to the Christian Church (Disciples of Christ) General Assembly in Nashville, TN. There I was in worship with over 5000 brothers and sisters in Christ. All shapes, sizes, colors, sexual orientations, races, immigration statuses....you name it. It was nothing short of amazing. I absolutely did not eat well, but my foot is better and I got a good bit of walking and swimming in. And the best part is, though it was 6 nights and 5 days packed full of information, learning, prayer, fellowship and worship, I came home last night feeling refreshed and renewed! My soul was fed, my body was rested spiritually and moved physically and spiritually. And I realized (again) that My body is not mine. It is a gift from God. And regardless of what I do to it, he will love me none the less. But, he has given me this gift to take care of. He has cleared the path many times for me to do so, and I have failed, yet he forgives me. Every single day. And it's time I give him a rest. Rather than forgiveness for my weaknesses, I want to give him (and every single one of you reading this thing) a reason to rejoice with me! Rejoice because I have finally followed the path he has paved for me and am ready to go back around but only to take people with me! I cannot do that until I get around it by myself.
So here I go again, back on this road. My spirit is refreshed, my foot is healed, and my motivation is re sparked! I start going back to Curves on Monday and will experiment with Zumba on the Xbox as well as walking outside when the weather permits. I am still going to walk in the 5K on August 6th, albeit slower than I had originally hoped, but that doesn't matter. God does not clock our time. He just wants us to follow him gracefully and faithfully.
I look forward to developing my fabulousness, from my head down to my toes. Will you join me?
Since I last blogged, I started doing pretty good. I started going to one of those weight loss clinics. You know, the kind that give you shots...yah. Those. And I joined curves which I started going to every day during lunch. It was going well, I lost weight and inches and started feeling good, for the most part. The shots were pretty awful, made me feel awful and I don't believe they helped. I think it was the eating choices and exercise that was making the difference. Then, I went on vacation. I danced my heart out with some of the coolest women on the planet...in wedge heals....and toured Washington D.C. and came home with a fractured foot. I tried to go to curves in my big ol' hot boot, but it didn't work. So, I ate like crap again, I didn't exercise and fell off the wagon....again.
This past week, I had the amazing opportunity to go to the Christian Church (Disciples of Christ) General Assembly in Nashville, TN. There I was in worship with over 5000 brothers and sisters in Christ. All shapes, sizes, colors, sexual orientations, races, immigration statuses....you name it. It was nothing short of amazing. I absolutely did not eat well, but my foot is better and I got a good bit of walking and swimming in. And the best part is, though it was 6 nights and 5 days packed full of information, learning, prayer, fellowship and worship, I came home last night feeling refreshed and renewed! My soul was fed, my body was rested spiritually and moved physically and spiritually. And I realized (again) that My body is not mine. It is a gift from God. And regardless of what I do to it, he will love me none the less. But, he has given me this gift to take care of. He has cleared the path many times for me to do so, and I have failed, yet he forgives me. Every single day. And it's time I give him a rest. Rather than forgiveness for my weaknesses, I want to give him (and every single one of you reading this thing) a reason to rejoice with me! Rejoice because I have finally followed the path he has paved for me and am ready to go back around but only to take people with me! I cannot do that until I get around it by myself.
So here I go again, back on this road. My spirit is refreshed, my foot is healed, and my motivation is re sparked! I start going back to Curves on Monday and will experiment with Zumba on the Xbox as well as walking outside when the weather permits. I am still going to walk in the 5K on August 6th, albeit slower than I had originally hoped, but that doesn't matter. God does not clock our time. He just wants us to follow him gracefully and faithfully.
I look forward to developing my fabulousness, from my head down to my toes. Will you join me?
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Ha- I'm back....
You know, I hate trying to lose weight. I wish obesity was the norm sometimes. But, I realize that it isn't. I wouldn't call myself lazy....all of the time. I think I just have too much on my plate. A full-time job, a full-time course load, two kids five and under, a working husband and an active church life. Where does eatting healthy and working out fit in? Strangely, the two (supposedly) would help the others get easier, or so I hear......
So, in the last two years I've tried it all. Weight watchers, sparkpeople, beach body, the biggest loser, calotren etc. I've also contemplated medical weight loss (pills and shots) and even surgery. I don't want to do something so drastic, because I know I can do this! But, how. When. Where. Why? What is my problem? Why is it so hard? Just ugh!
But, as I look back at the ups and downs one thing remains consistent. My desire to lose weight is strong. My motivation is in my head, but it stops there most of the time. And the need is non-negotiable. I have two small children. I have a husband. I have an abundantly blessed life that God has given me. And I need to do something (yesterday) to sustain it. What I am doing now is NOT working.
So here I am again. I have a new exercise bike in my dining room. The weather has turned. My kids have spring fever. And it is time the excuses stop. I need to do this so that I can be happy and healthy and live the life God planned for me. But how?
I'm going to try Weight Watchers again. I'm hoping to meet some online accountability buddies so I'm not going at this alone. I want to lose weight so desperately. I am 30 now (FABULOUS AT THIRTY OF COURSE) and I am really starting to feel it. There has never been a better or more important time to take action. I owe it to GOD, myself, my kids, my hubby, my employer, and everyone else whose life I may touch in the process. So, as I begin (tomorrow since it's bedtime) I am going to strive for greatness and do this, once and for all.
Many Blessings,
FAT_Lori
To my facebook friends who read this....no, I'm not on facebook until Easter! I can follow through with at least one thing in my life :) I just thought I'd post this...for motivation, accountability and to let you know I'm still alive, since I don't talk to most of you anywhere but there! See ya on Easter! Be Blessed!
So, in the last two years I've tried it all. Weight watchers, sparkpeople, beach body, the biggest loser, calotren etc. I've also contemplated medical weight loss (pills and shots) and even surgery. I don't want to do something so drastic, because I know I can do this! But, how. When. Where. Why? What is my problem? Why is it so hard? Just ugh!
But, as I look back at the ups and downs one thing remains consistent. My desire to lose weight is strong. My motivation is in my head, but it stops there most of the time. And the need is non-negotiable. I have two small children. I have a husband. I have an abundantly blessed life that God has given me. And I need to do something (yesterday) to sustain it. What I am doing now is NOT working.
So here I am again. I have a new exercise bike in my dining room. The weather has turned. My kids have spring fever. And it is time the excuses stop. I need to do this so that I can be happy and healthy and live the life God planned for me. But how?
I'm going to try Weight Watchers again. I'm hoping to meet some online accountability buddies so I'm not going at this alone. I want to lose weight so desperately. I am 30 now (FABULOUS AT THIRTY OF COURSE) and I am really starting to feel it. There has never been a better or more important time to take action. I owe it to GOD, myself, my kids, my hubby, my employer, and everyone else whose life I may touch in the process. So, as I begin (tomorrow since it's bedtime) I am going to strive for greatness and do this, once and for all.
Many Blessings,
FAT_Lori
To my facebook friends who read this....no, I'm not on facebook until Easter! I can follow through with at least one thing in my life :) I just thought I'd post this...for motivation, accountability and to let you know I'm still alive, since I don't talk to most of you anywhere but there! See ya on Easter! Be Blessed!
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Regress
Well, I am back. Happy New Year! Unfortunatley, I do not come bearing good news. Progress was apparently not in my vocabulary last year. Regress, a relatively new word to me, well, that I am using anyway, is. Instead of losing weight, I gained it back! And now, though I said it would never happen, I am back over the 300 mark. As I go back through some of my older posts, I realized something. Man, does it look good on paper (or a computer screen in this case) I am great at setting goals, great at telling stories, great at dreaming; I am not great at following through.....with anything. I do not know what to do about this, except pray for direction. But I'm not really good at that either. So, I am declaring this year, 2011 a year of new beginnings. And truly it is.
On the very first day of this year, we moved our family into a house. It is not ours, but we will be here for as long as the landlords will keep us. I am beginning a different direction in my job. I am an established student. I am taking on more responsibility in church. Or on more commities, which usually amounts to more responsibilty. And with all of this I have a renound sense of peace and faith. While I did not accomplish my weight loss goals last year, I would not say it was a total loss. I learned a lot about my faith, my church family and how God works. I think that is where the peace part comes in. So I think I will leverage some of that in my weight loss journey.
This year, weight loss is not just something I want to do. It is something I HAVE to do. I went to the doctor late last year fearing the worse. My blood pressure symptoms were all over the place, I looked up every symptom I thought I had on webMB and convinced myself I have it all. Everything an obese person should have. But, much to my surprise (and relief) with the exception of my BP (which was not even high when I went, after two days without meds) I am perfectly healthy. I do not feel that way though. I have a laundry list of things I want to accomplish, things I want to do. There is this heavy weight holding back this reality though. No, really, HEAVY WEIGHT. When I was 25, it didn't bother me. But today it does. I feel it. It hurts to move, to breathe, to walk. It's hard to get up from chairs, it's hard to hold my kids. I can't get comfortable in bed, I have heartburn. All of these things are because of my HEAVY WEIGHT! It's true! Because I'm perfectly healthy except for that. I am not, however, naive enough to think that I will stay that way if I continue on the path I am on.
So what to do with this newly found intellegence? Heck if I know. I am going to put it back on the top of the list though. It has to take a priortiy, right up there after my prayer life. I have to take control. I need to feel good and remain healthy if I am to follow the path God has led me on. While I don't know what this is completely, I know I can't do it like this.
Here we go again. A new beginning. A fresh start. A rekindled flame. A necessity. I'm not setting goals, because I suck at them. I am going to take babysteps. So much in my life is in sync right now. I finally feel like I have control over our home, our finances, our relationships. Actually, I don't have control....I've relingquished control. I'm just a manager. God's really in control. But the one thing that is poorly managed is back on the top of the list. I'm know I'm F.A.T......fabulous at thirty that is. But, I no longer want to be the other meaning of that three letter F word. So, as I pray, I hope you will too. Not sure what this will look like yet, but I know I'm not alone on my journey, and I look forward to seeing what lies ahead.
On the very first day of this year, we moved our family into a house. It is not ours, but we will be here for as long as the landlords will keep us. I am beginning a different direction in my job. I am an established student. I am taking on more responsibility in church. Or on more commities, which usually amounts to more responsibilty. And with all of this I have a renound sense of peace and faith. While I did not accomplish my weight loss goals last year, I would not say it was a total loss. I learned a lot about my faith, my church family and how God works. I think that is where the peace part comes in. So I think I will leverage some of that in my weight loss journey.
This year, weight loss is not just something I want to do. It is something I HAVE to do. I went to the doctor late last year fearing the worse. My blood pressure symptoms were all over the place, I looked up every symptom I thought I had on webMB and convinced myself I have it all. Everything an obese person should have. But, much to my surprise (and relief) with the exception of my BP (which was not even high when I went, after two days without meds) I am perfectly healthy. I do not feel that way though. I have a laundry list of things I want to accomplish, things I want to do. There is this heavy weight holding back this reality though. No, really, HEAVY WEIGHT. When I was 25, it didn't bother me. But today it does. I feel it. It hurts to move, to breathe, to walk. It's hard to get up from chairs, it's hard to hold my kids. I can't get comfortable in bed, I have heartburn. All of these things are because of my HEAVY WEIGHT! It's true! Because I'm perfectly healthy except for that. I am not, however, naive enough to think that I will stay that way if I continue on the path I am on.
So what to do with this newly found intellegence? Heck if I know. I am going to put it back on the top of the list though. It has to take a priortiy, right up there after my prayer life. I have to take control. I need to feel good and remain healthy if I am to follow the path God has led me on. While I don't know what this is completely, I know I can't do it like this.
Here we go again. A new beginning. A fresh start. A rekindled flame. A necessity. I'm not setting goals, because I suck at them. I am going to take babysteps. So much in my life is in sync right now. I finally feel like I have control over our home, our finances, our relationships. Actually, I don't have control....I've relingquished control. I'm just a manager. God's really in control. But the one thing that is poorly managed is back on the top of the list. I'm know I'm F.A.T......fabulous at thirty that is. But, I no longer want to be the other meaning of that three letter F word. So, as I pray, I hope you will too. Not sure what this will look like yet, but I know I'm not alone on my journey, and I look forward to seeing what lies ahead.
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